Darkside Rainbow

Today’s guest post is by Lessa:

What do you get when you toss sixteen people into a house, cut them off from the outside world - no TV, no internet, no radio, no movies, no books (other then the Bible or a single other religious text), put cameras and microphones on them 24-7, show the footage both on the Television networks and online via internet feeds? You get Big Brother, USA, and all of the drama that goes along with it, of course.

I am a HUGE Big Brother Fan. I have been for the past 3 or 4 seasons or so, and in Season 8 last summer, I began covering the show for 451 Press over at Big Brother Craze. Due to that, I’ve gotten the live internet feeds, and for three months I live and breathe the antics of the ‘Hamsters’ in their cage, while trying to remember to feed my kids and what ‘outside’ looks like. It’s like the real world, only intensified as they’re forced to deal with one another on a daily basis, plus compete against each other for the big $500k prize.

I know, I’m a total nerd. I’m ok with that.
Also - stick with me here, this post relevant to DSR, I swear!

Anyway, we currently have a special first Winter Season of Big Brother, and they threw another twist in there to juice things up - the House Guests play in couples, that they have been told are their “Soul-mate” due to personality questionnaires they completed as part of the application process.

I know, right?!? The possibility for drama just increased 100fold! Happy Lessa!

The fans, like myself, were THRILLED to discover that, though they’ve had gay and lesbian houseguests before, they actually paired two gay men together as soul-mates in the house, among the 20-somethings, and one 45 year old Penthouse Pet (1984) and self proclaimed ‘Cougar’. We were excited to see a different dynamic play out in the house, and how these hamsters would work with their partners, and who would hookup. Showmances (romance done primarily for game-play, on a reality show) were BOUND to happen in that situation, and the Feeders were BRIMMING with excitement!

Then one of the gay men, Neil, had a family emergency and left the show, leaving our poor Joshuah playing straight man with his new female partner. They formed a solid friendship, and their game-play is strategic while they work incredibly well together. After all, they no longer have to deal with sexual tension! The fans were notably disappointed, and bemoaned the chance for a gay showmance had gone down the tubes. Then, these very same people, turned on one of the other men in the house, showing their true colors, and double standards.

James, sporting his pink Mohawk and crazy tattoos, who’s taking a break from biking around the world on just $100 dollars and a belief that we are too materialistic, promoting peace and good will, seeking the elusive ‘good’ in the world, paired with the lovely rocker chick Chelsia with her bi-tendencies - James was discovered to have starred in porn.

Gay porn.

The internet went WILD with this information. I’ve not broached it at BBC, because it makes me so angry the way people have turned on a man they didn’t think they would like, discovered they kinda did like, but now OMG HE DID PORN AND IT WAS GAY! (That sound you just heard? My eyes rolling.)

James and his partner Chelsia have hit it off, as well. He’s said often how much he likes her, how he wishes he had more to offer her outside of the house. It goes both ways, and they have a solid friendship building, and some make-out sessions, too, as they get to know each other better. You’d think this would make Feeders happy - but Feeders, they are a fickle bunch. Now all they can think of is what she’ll say when she discovers he’s been in GAY porn, when she finds out she’s being played by a man who is either gay, or just gay for pay, and what must her parent’s be thinking OMG!

It irritates me to NO END. These are the SAME Feeders who liked him before, who appreciated how comfortable he was with himself, how open he was to this experience, and how smart he’s playing the game. Now, because the GAY Porn, he’s nothing but dirt to them. I’m saddened, and angered, and outright disgusted at times by it all.

People have asked me how I can like James, especially since he’s done GAY porn. It’s as simple as this: I think he’s extremely comfortable with himself, and he’s got a good head on his shoulders (…I’ll not make any jokes of how he gives or receives the same, of course. Or how he’s hung. Though — DAMN. He proves the Black Man Myth is a lie - it’s all about the skinny white boys. Trust me. I know. I married one.) He understands people, he’s friendly and outgoing, he genuinely cares for folks and their stories, he wants to know YOU, and not the you that you feel safe showing. He listens, he understands the dynamics of the game, and of relationships and how to work both to his advantage. I find his sexuality (which I think is best defined as ‘fluid’ then gay, straight, bi) to be completely beside the point. He’s REAL, and he’s true to himself, always.

Case in point - one of the houseguests collapsed and had a seizure. He was first to her aid, he held her, he was calm, he was prepared to do CPR, he aided the nurse in bringing her back. Afterwards, he was shaken, and upset, and took a lot of what happened to heart. This houseguest that collapsed is someone he could not stand - he didn’t like her at all, but when she needed him, he was there.

That, my friends - not who he fucks and when, where, how and for how much cash - that is what defines a good man. He’s the epitome of why we shouldn’t judge a book by its cover. Would that all the Feeders could see him as I do.

~Lessa
http://bigbrothercraze.com

What, you mean I still have to tag this crap even if someone else wrote it?